My ex has a child support order that he got when I sent my children to live with him 5 years ago. I couldn't manage caring for them and he could. He said then that he would never keep them from me and that we would work together.

That has changed. I have been unable to keep a steady job for months since I broke my arm in October and then had a severe mixed episode starting in late February. I am begging him to remove the order (he can) but he still seems resentful of me. Like I choose this. I'm in the bottom of despair right now because not only am I paralyzed and unable to be an effective human being, they now may suspend my license due to being behind.

I can't stop crying. I feel I can't go on like this. The emotional pain and the lack of hope is crippling.