Being a lesbian is very difficult... acceptance does not come easy... I have delt with this all of my life. But I had no choice... I have been different all of my life... I had feelings for girls when I was very young.... I tried to please family and got married, but I always had a womyn at my side. My children have always known that I was a lesbian... acceptance from them has been easy. I don't know if you have children... if you are not happy, think hard of what you have to do...