yes, you have to admit it, you are still self harming, just in more creative ways. anything that causes pain or injury is considered self harm. don't judge yourself too harshly though, it is a hard habit to kick. I haven't self harmed in about seven years but I still think about it more often than I care to admit. I cant believe how often it pops into my head. it shocks me cause its been so long. but it is a coping skill and until we learn a new way to cope it will always be there. take care.