It sounds like you are taking an honest look at yr life and that is commendable. Stay strong. I always think that it takes a very strong man to look at himself and his issues. My father is 86 and has NEVER taken a look at his behavior...never looked at the fact that he's lived his whole life in depression. He's just a miserable man and I feel very sorry for him. He did alot of damage to me growing up but he never saw it and still doesn't to this day. Anyways depression is VERY hard to live with...it is not easy looking at our past and trauma we've had to endure. I think you are totally on the right track...You may feel like you've spiraled downwards but you are in the fight of yr life and you are doing the good work by seeking help. Be proud of yr self. Try not to put yr self down for yr depression cause it's not yr fault. It's a chemical imbalance that we can't stand. But given the proper treatment we can conquer it. Yes it takes time but we've got plenty of that so keep yr head up high and be proud of yr self. Thx for coming on here and sharing with us. Keep coming back. We're always here for eachother.

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