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Originally Posted by nummy
Have you ever been in a situation where there was both like, loss, and rejection so bad it felt like trauma? Like even if you were a child? People end friendships all the time, but sounds like something set you off. If no trauma, maybe you have just a fear if rejection maybe? Just throwing that out there to see if it helps.
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Well, my entire group of friends in 8th grade turned on me one day out of nowhere and told me I was no longer one of them without any explanation which seemed like a pretty huge deal at 13/14 years old even though looking back on it, it doesn't seem like much. Basically just made me completely alone and isolated because they were literally the only people I knew. I've been pretty untrusting of people ever since that day and it made the rest of the school year horrible. One of them started trying to pick fights with me to impress the others so he would just walk up to me every day and start punching me and I didn't want to fight so I just took it and walked away. That's the only thing I can think of that might be sort of like what you're talking about, but that was 15+ years ago.
From the sounds of it, I'm not dealing with the same stuff as the rest of you with PTSD. It was only the online tests that kept telling me I had it that made me think to ask here. I was diagnosed with depression and social anxiety and possible manic episodes, but ptsd was never mentioned. I tend to be a very obsessive person, so I think it's just the depression and anxiety and obsessive thoughts all coming together to make me unable to stop thinking about this situation.