i hope newtus is ok too. she most likely just fell asleep i bet. but it sucks she put you all in this position. i guess thats why they say no suicide posts. because it makes others feel helpless. i care about newtus too but i think there are options for her to help herself. i struggle with isolation too.. it sucks...but there are ways to overcome it. u just have to be willing and committed to changing. My T asked me today if there was something appealing about being psychotic. he said i cant seem to let it go. it made me think a lot. i told him the only appealing thing is that im not really bored when im psychotic cuz there is a lot going on. but when im well i struggle with boredom. i appreciate him exploring that with me. i guess im trying to say that it seems like newtus has a hard time letting go of unstability. maybe being stable scares her. but i dont know i cant speak for her. sometimes its hard to want to get better when doing badly is all u know. ive been there before. im not coming down on newtus or anything just trying to be helpful i guess. i really do hope she is ok and just asleep.