Perhaps this is just the way that i read your post, but to me it doesn't seem to be your "fault" at all. I never would have envisioned a psychiatrist who doesn't like medicine as a solution...hmm. To me it seems like you have every right to be confused about the situation, and that the psychiatrist needs to decide exactly where he stands and needs to plant himself there...but that's just me.
i wish you the best anyways, hope everything turns out well.
(((hugs)))