I feel like crying reading these. I've suffered from these rage 'episodes' for so long and no one said it had anything to do with my bipolar, but obviously, I'm not alone. I get so angry and it's never rational. Yes, I'll scream and yell and throw things. Sometimes though, and I wonder if anyone else gets this, but I'll get sadistic. Like I'll enjoy psychologically torturing people, particularly loved ones. (this is very hard to talk about as I'm not manic atm). To extremes, even. I've hurt myself in front of my boyfriend before just to watch him cry. It feels just like a rage fit, but much more controlled and dangerous. I don't know, I think I get to talk to my therapist about it tomorrow.

Rage is much more common for me though! Thank you! The other things my doctors suggested is maybe I was depressed and irritable. It's a LOT MORE than irritable, as you guys seem to understand And I'm most definitely manic during these times!

Mostly, my coping tactics include: riding it out (not coping, really...), blasting obscenely loud music and dancing seductively in front of a mirror (ALONE!!!), writing angry notes I later shred, and most importantly, drawing the future. Me in happy places, through college, with my lover, with my own house, etc... What our pets will look like, it goes on.