I am silently screaming inside, thier tentacles claw at my lungs,
Desperate to find a voice,
Nobody listens nobody hears, They scream on.......
They have no choice.

I am on the edge, neither one thing or the other,
Vacant inside,no substance of form,
merely a void enclosed in a cover.
Whilst the self i am you describe succintly...
Who is that who is it really?....

I long for you ,I wan your touch,
I love you so very much....
I hate you,i loathe you go away
You are not alone in guessing
Which will it be today?....

It does not mean i care less,
or dont appreciate you tenderness,
Only confusion reigns when changes come,
Inside this being that is mostly numb.

Anger bubbles beneath the surface,
eroding and destroying all in its path,
Carefully concealed behind a nervous laugh,
Stay away,keepyour distance, but do not flee
God forbid that your should fear me.

It is through the haze i see you again....
I don the guise and fein control,
Perfectly acting out the fantasy role...
Untill he day i reach far within and feel....
Rip out he pain,and grip it tight within my grasp....
Untill it is finally STILL.
written at 2am by a sleepless moody x