Hypomania doesn't feel worse than depression to me. The problem with h-m is that the ecstasy feeling often develops into irritability, then self-righteous anger, and even into rage. I end up being inappropriately angry (enraged) at people. That was typical hypomania for me when I was younger. Now, in my 50's, the h-m tends to be "negative"...skip the ecstasy part - I feel agitated, extremely anxious, on edge...and the mixed states are worse. Eventually it all crashes down into a horrible, frightening anxious depression.