I want to contact her. It's an everyday fight. That is why I am educating myself. It's not easy for her to talk to me about it... You can contact her for me on my behalf however, I dont want to get hurt, personally. She was in my dreams last night. I love her.

The thing is, when she drinks she says that she is cheating on me, then she calls the guy "kevin" in front of me crying when she is hammered to pick her up, then she tells me they had sex, then she tells me she moved on... Then when she is sober in the morning she said it was all bc she was drunk and she is sorry. Well, she doesn't take meds or get help. And she drinks everyday. So, living with this everyday bc she cant cope, and I die emotionally, mentally and spiritually from it? The stress even effected me physically and those are all four components to your health.

I love her, I want dont want to give up on her, I ESPECIALLY DONT WANT TO GIVE UP ON HER WHEN IT GIVES ANOTHER MAN A FREE PASS TO MANIPULATE/ BANG HER ALL OUT OF ILLNESS/ DRUNKNESS. I really care about her health and well being and I cant stay in her life and watch men take advantage of her who have no feelings for her and the man she was supposed to marry and be with is here going through hell with this.

You can talk to her, I already made it clear to her if I ever contact her it will be through a third party and the same goes with her.

The other thing, last time I saw her was before church. It was three Sundays ago, she was on her floor of her parents house throwing up all morning from drinking to much the night before, by herself.