Did you ever see inception....when they return to the real world it doesn't necessarily feel real so they make a token to help them determine when they are in the real world because each world changes it slightly. I could totally relate to that the real world is so much more beige if you know what I mean----and you really have to choose to come back here----there has to be meaning for you people, places, things that you can't create with your own mind----you have to find what's meaningful for you and build it here. A lot of times the world you were in before will tell you what you want to do---I wanted to heal people...so I have integrated more aspects of that here in this world and it makes me happier to be here than I was before...