that just blows. I dont know if she even knows how much I love her or care about her and miss her. and I she might think the same way about me. i dont even know if she knows why i left and if thats the case then there is nothing to fix in her mind if she doesnt even know she pushed me away. is there a place for "survivors" like me to get therapy/help? Is it normal for someone to need a therapist after being exposed to this degree of BP?