After stopping esticalopram, I started generic effexor - that worked a little - now, I'm not on any medication. I don't have side-effects. I'm neither depressed nor suicidal - I am however, in a perpetual holding pattern of "stressed out-ness", and that is largely related to my lack of work in a profession that I enjoy...such is life with depression. One year ago, I was told by my very understanding wife, "it's so good to have the old you back"...in the months that have elapsed, I quit a job and have found myself back in the snare of depression...