I acknowledge that you're moving on but I found a few more links that may be helpful to you, lostson.

This link is from a site called Men's Web: Myths About Male Sexual Abuse

I also found this one: M.A.L.E. Survivor. They have a chat room and discussion board there. I don't know if you would feel welcome exploring your situation there or if you would be welcomed, but again, it's something you could look at.

This article may also be helpful for you: Can a Child Molester Be Rehabilitated. I realize that you've not yet acted on your urges but I didn't write the article nor choose the title. This statement stuck out for me however: we find that empathy (understanding the child’s pain/point of view) is one of the key pieces in helping an abuser to stop abusing. I imagine that your empathy is part of what leads to your own self-torment -- you feel badly for feeling what you feel. Ultimately, this may be your greatest strength even if it's painful for you. It's better that you carry that pain as an adult, than inflict it on a child. You may even find that this can be a joyful act, a liberating act, not a painful one -- you carry that pain so others won't have to carry if for you. This is what courage is for.

Be well, lostson.