Yeah so that's interesting to me that you also wanted to help people---I mean for me I thought I could heal people medicine couldn't treat and you want to save the world so there is this intrinsic caring about other people even amidst the sometimes bad things people can do(at least in my delusions/hallucinations some things were bad). Are there any causes you feel strongly about in this world---saving the rainforest the whales, people after a disaster,or people who are sick or poor. I guess what I'm saying is incorporate more of that helping behavior in whatever way you can---either with the skill set that you have or learn a new skill set to help in this process. You don't have to join the peace corps or become mother Theresa but you know find a way to contribute in your own way...