Having a hard time responding or posting, everything I say seems shallow and redundant so why say anything. The mobile crisis outreach stopped by yesterday again, made a ton of notes and told me to use the ambian EVERY night, not just for a couple days then take a break. I worry it will stop working if I do that.

I don't feel more depressed it's more that I now feel nothing, think nothing....I stare out the window for hours and don't notice time as passed. Not sure if that's a trend in the right direction or not, at least I no longer think of suicide.