First, you are a wonderful man and we need more people in the world like you!

The nature of Bipolar is cyclical and when she goes back on an upswing you'll see the woman that fell in love with you. If you're willing to stick by her you have to be prepared for this type of behavior. It will always be up and down.

My husband has PTSD - you might want to research that. He's hypersensitive so I have to be careful how I approach him. When I'm in the midst of a Bipolar cycle I forget that and my mean, viscous side comes out.

Have you tried to talk to her? She may be pushing you away because she's scared of losing you and no amount of reassurance from you is going to convince her. Your actions will speak louder than words. Keep loving her and hopefully she gets well enough to show you that love in return.

When I was at my worst I didn't care about life itself and I certainly couldn't handle the pressure of trying to make someone happy. I tried my damnedest to push my husband away but luckily for me he's stubborn as hell.

Hopefully this reply helps you in some small way.

Sending many hugs and wishing you both the best.