I cant live like this anymore. I am losing myself. I want to be left alone and can't because life simply continues with or without me. How can I end it quickly and painlessly? That's all I really want anyway and I am too afraid to do it. Why can't I just stay in my room indefinitely? Just shove food under the door and keep the internet running. Now I get why some criminals feel safer in prison. Not that I'm criminally inclined in case anyone thinks that. I just want to be left alone, I can't function and I cant do this.