I lived with a man who used me, he would use my body, he did it to many people, if not hundreds of people. He manipulated me, i was exploited. The same game. He woke me up one morning when he flung the door open and charged at me. He woke me up out of a dead sleep and was groping me, it not in a "Coming on to me" sort of way. I asked him to stop and he would not stop, eventually I had to use all the force I had to push him off of me. This went on for a few minutes, he would not stop groping me when I asked him to stop. I had had dreams about that morning and have spent 10 years hiding what happened, I felt somewhat responsible for putting myself in the position, I did have consensual sex with him early in the ((relationship)) we were not dating, only had sex. We did not have any sex for two months and that is when he did this to me. I feel sort of dazed and confused.

What is this?