nothing i ever really want comes true my minds got alot of what ifs and no real answers i feel stuck in a routine contemplation of taking mind numbing pills maybe sit in a room with no windows no view maybe i just need a holiday for me but i cant be alone when im on my own my mind takes me back to the bad days of growing up and where it all went wrong life is too hard sometimes and i cant focus on the good things when my mind is filled up with so many bad things theres a fog and its not lifting so ill just float aimlessly and see where the tide takes me maybe ill find a light and make it safely to shore one day