I mostly just want to be left alone too. Being in prison or a psych ward would be very easy like you said but it would also suck because you can't do want you want (I don't think you'd have unlimited internet access at least and you would be forced to do various things and would be totally under the control of others which would suck). Plus in prison people would try to push you around and stuff. I have contemplated that before though, how much easier it would be to be institutionalized.

Also dying would suck because then you just won't experience anything at all. I can understand how that would be desirable to a certain degree depending on the situation, but even though I'm miserable and reclusive I prefer to experience something to nothing at this point.

Anyways I know the above is very logical and whatever and probably doesn't help that much because you've already thought of all of it. But that's the logic I use to talk myself into sticking around and trying to maintain my "freedom" (if that's the right word for it). I've had plenty of suicidal ideation throughout my life but killing myself seems even more pointless than what I do now (which does seem extremely pointless to me).

Take care man, maybe you can change meds or get into therapy / change therapists or make a lifestyle change or something. ***** life, it's overrated! Don't give up though, you can get to a better place. The best part about reaching the point we're at is that there's nowhere to go but up and even if it's just up a little bit it's way better.

Blah, blah, blah I like to hear myself talk. This probably wasn't helpful but I took the time to write it so I'm posting it anyways.