Dear Hellion: sorry you are going through this. Know that when I am deep in the PTSD flashbacks/symptoms, I feel very threatened by others. I don't give out trust in others so easily as I did pre-PTSD - I have to vet someone pretty thoroughly, and over quite a period of time, before I give up many personal details. I still don't invite anyone to my home but a few trusted family members - it's my safety zone, and I protect my sanctuary.

I feel like it comes in waves. And when I am engulfed in it, I just react. Afterwards, I have to clean up the mess/try to mend relationships. Although, it has gotten better in the past few years, but still can come upon me when I least expect it. Therapy has helped, and also reading about/sharing about PTSD with people who understand.

Good luck, hang on! I hope you can find some of what you need, here.