I am 27, F, my name is krysti, from PA.
i am diagnosed with Anxiety, PTSD, and Depression.
I was married to a guy that i thought was going to be with me forever. Well it turned out he was abusive and a liar. He smashed my head out my car door and i went into shock. Well he got scared so he rolled me out the car door going 40 mph. Long story short i spent a while in the ICU. with bleeding in my brain, partial broken back, broken ribs, my right side was nothing but road rash and face too And to top it off i got raped that night. But i was in shock. I only remember bits and pieces....
Anyways, I seemed to be fine and dealing well since it happened 5 years ago. I told myself i have 4 kids, i own my own equine business theres no time to be a sissy! Which now i believe was a mistake. I obviously never delt with it. I just lived off pain killers and ativan and celexa.
But 4 months ago i met a man that im in love with and he helped me break a 5 year pill habit. Now im sober and everythings coming back. HARDCORE... i am now negative, always doubting us being together, im embarressed of my body sometimes, i push him away, i look for reasons to not trust him, and its just not good. I feel like im ruined. What is wrong with me! I feel like im going nuts