Out of curiosity, for those of you with anhedonia, do you also have this feeling of waiting for something?

It's like the feeling when someone unexpectedly calls and says they're on the way over and will be there any minute. Suddenly you're rushing around trying to get everything in order.

But then they don't show up.

You're left in a limbo state where you can't start something like vacuuming, or reading, or writing, or cooking a meal, because the person is going to show up any minute so you don't feel like you'll have time to finish.

But still they don't show up.

That feeling accompanies anhedonia for me. I'm waiting and expecting that something is about to happen that will redefine my life, and so I avoid starting something that a) doesn't matter, and b) doesn't feel like what I should be doing. But then I just end up continuing to wait. I recall describing exactly this feeling over a dozen years ago near the end of high school. I'd had to give up a scholarship and path I'd been set on, and so had no plan for the future. It felt like something was going to happen that would reveal that new plan and new path, but it has been many years since then and that's still not happened.

I don't know if that's the normal feeling that accompanies anhedonia, or if I feel that way because my life was redefined through traumas and I'm awaiting something as equally impacting to change it again.