I have some same fears, some feelings that it becomes hard to control them, i am very anxious and i think i have a small obsesiv-compulsiv dissorder (i think....i see my repetitive actions). I have some one...my husband. We are married 2 years now, but we are togheter for about 7 years and after all this time i am still alone, even more alone with him around me. He don't speaks with me about anything, just staying on his computer or spending time in the garage. I talk almost alone about all the time. He just consent with anything i say. He never argue with me, never shout at me, no drinking or comming home late, no bad language, he is perfect in this case. But he is never there for me. I had an abortion for him cause he did not want to upset his parents (we were not married at that time and his familly never liked me). I am always affraid for him not to happens something to him cause i know if that happens they will all say it is my fault. I do everything for him...i will give my life for him. He is just for him, very selfish. And i think becasue of his behavior with me made me to get distant with other people and it gets so hard to create new friendships. Anytime i try to get close to some one, they never call me back, never talk to me if i don't start a discution. It became so hard to laugh. Nothing makes me happy anymore and if i die today i will not be sorry.