* If I could edit the title I would in fact take out the "unreasonable" bit. Now I had a little more time to sit on it (and thanks to Djinn) I think we're both guilty of that. *

I wanted to post this last night, but I was so shaken I couldn't remember my username. Anyway, I need help/advice BADLY. The sooner the better because right now, where I am, I have literally no friends or family to turn to.

Last night, I had a catatonic episode - basically I was so burned out from working 3 jobs at once to support myself and my live-in fiance (who doesn't work & whose dad cut him off). He tried to help at first. His suggestions? Let's go out on the bench (1 AM, inner courtyard, neighbors were bound to hear me crying & I couldn't move). Let's watch Lion King (um, what?!). Let's see if I can make you cry. (The hell?!) Eventually he started to tickle my feet (which I hate), at which point I got out of bed and curled up on the carpet. He said - quote - "OK please stop, I don't want this vegetable-you, I want my girlfriend back." Then he picked me up curled up as I was (it hurt!!) and threw me on the bed. Then pulled me off the bed to adjust the covers (?) and I ran to the bathroom and locked myself in, I was so shocked. He told me again to stop it, said he hadn't slept in 20 hours and "All right, OK, I'm going to bed." AND HE DID.

IF IT WERE HIM SOBBING IN THE BATHROOM, I'D BREAK THE DOOR DOWN. He just ****ing went to bed. Not the first time he ignores me when I'm having a major episode and NEED him, he says he "doesn't know what to do with me" (when I'm like that?) and is COMPLETELY unreasonable and selfish: "How do you think this makes ME feel?!" etc.

I'm in therapy, off medication for now, but knowing I can't rely on this man I used to love with all my heart is killing me. Is it really time to walk away? When I'm not during one of my episodes it's all good, we get along great. When I am, though - zero support. He just doesn't know what to do/doesn't want to learn what to do.

What should I do??