It sounds like you have a good T, I am so happy about that. I know the challenge of trusting and trying to open up too ((Jane)). It is such a big challenge to find the courage to let out all unmet needs and "trust", me too, it was hard for me too, very hard. As for my long post, someday you will understand that it is healing to help others when you recognize their challenge and when you were there too. Once I did trust and began to get the right support and got stronger, I realized how important that was and have been so grateful, so grateful that others reached out to me, understood my challenge and listened and validated me. I know you are not at that point "yet", but you will eventually get there and understand why I reach out to you and that it is not an imposition, but a part of my own journey to continue to heal too. Even though you don't feel you deserve it sometimes, you will get past this part, be patient, you really do deserve, even though it sometimes doesn't feel that way, that in itself is negative messages you never deserved, you will see that eventually so be "patient". Venting and putting it all into words is "healing and important", you will get to a point where you realize that and will
start feeling "relief".

((Hugs))
OE