(((((Mija)))))

Dealing with trauma does not make you a sissy! I'm so sorry that that happened to you.
Are you in counseling at all? Do you have a t? He/she might be able to help you work through it.

Dealing with trauma is not easy. But it's better than pushing it under the rug, as I'm sure you've found out. That's what I did with one of my traumas too, and I really regret that I did. Because even though it happened 10 years ago, it still feels like it was yesterday at times.

You are strong, and you CAN work through this, mija! You can do this.