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Old May 07, 2014, 12:07 PM
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Originally Posted by newgal2 View Post
For me it is being alone and not engaged in any worthwhile activity - - just being in the same old rut of internet, t.v., basic household tasks. I need to be out of the house doing something with someone. The worst is when I'm alone up in my room just lying down at night, waiting for 9 p.m. to roll around so I can take my nighttime medication.
THIS. I've been stuck at home alone a lot lately and it's making my depression much worse. Once I get isolated I tend to want to stay that way and it just becomes a downward spiral.

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Originally Posted by Hbomb0903 View Post
I get hypersensitive to what people I care for think as well. Paranoid almost.
This too, though there's no "almost" about my paranoia. I can read a lot into simple statements, and sometimes have very complex ideas about how and why people are turning against me. Though this doesn't trigger my depression so much as it's a symptom of my mixed states. It mostly goes away when I get closer to baseline.

Sometimes I feel like any little thing can trigger my depression, but I'm starting to suspect that maybe my logical mind just latches on to some perceived minor hurt to justify how bad I'm feeling, and that the depression would've come on anyway. I do really believe that good events lift my mood and can stop the depression in its tracks, though.