I don't know how much longer I can live with feeling this way. I try to be a good friend, go out of my way to gladly be there for people, cheer people up, make people happy, be a shoulder to cry on. But everyone just discards me like a piece of garbage. Nobody cares. I put myself out there and try to be everything for some people and they make no effort back. I'm so incredibly lonely and feel completely useless. There is no reason for my being. I daydream of ways to "go". Driving my car in the rain today...it would be easy to have a single car accident. On top of that I have a genetic condition that makes all the joints in my body dislocate and sublux randomly, constant pain, no energy because of my pain meds and antidepressants (they aren't working anymore I'm thinking). I live a miserable existence. All I want is for someone to give a damn about me but I'm treated like gum on the bottom of people's shoes. What is so terribly wrong with me that I'm treated like a plague???