Hellion, my T is also very involved with supporting AA and al anon. He told me that many alcoholics/addicts are people who suffer from PTSD and self medicated to try to help them with the PTSD symptoms. No one sets out to become an alcoholic, they just get into that addictive cycle to help them with their psychological issues/pain/even compulsive ADHD like my husband has.

I know that you feel like no one can relate, but there "are" people that can relate. Many of these people are going to AA meetings, ACOA meetings and al anon meetings where they find others who can relate and be supportive. My T donates time in these areas to support others that don't understand and need more guidance.

I am sorry that you are in an unsupportive environment, I know that challenge first hand. I have to be honest, I used Klonopin to help me when it got really bad for a while. What I found however, it while Klonopin can help, it can also make the suicidal challenge harder so I weaned myself off of it which was extremely hard for me. I only take it when I have severe triggers that lead to very painful cycles where I am in too much physical pain. That is what this lawsuit is doing to me because of the lawyer mess ups and how it feeds the PTSD and keeps me in the trauma. I have to say that is one thing my T struggles with and hates too, because it really interferes with my healing.

Have you ever tried going to an AA meeting? If you find the right group, it can be so helpful and supportive, instead of feeling so alone. You should see if there are any PTSD support groups in your area too.

((Hugs))
OE