This coming mother's day I will grieve a lot as it will be the 2nd mother's day since she passed on November 20th, 2012 at the age of 80 from a heart attack. I have really no family to talk to... an aunt and cousin that lives in Baltimore that only sends me a Christmas card every year and on my birthday but they won't talk to me because I am "crazy" and don't understand mental illnessnesses like schizoaffective disorder i have along with depression and panic disorder.

I was hoping someone in here might have some coping techniques so I don't turn to a drunken mess like I did last year. I was thinking of instead finding others that have lost either their dad or mom and how you coped with it during times when everyone else is happily enjoying mother's day and although in my religious belief I feel that she made it to heaven safely and is at peace where there is no room for resentment anymore. I just don't want to go through it by numbing and was thinking instead of just making sure I feed myself well or go to a buffet over beer. Don't want beer, been sober since November 10th 2013.

Thanks for reading,

~ dmhobbit ~