Waterknob: thank you so much for your response!! You are so incredible sweet, I wish I could give you a hug!! My pain is similar to arthritic pain so I understand how you feel everyday. The hard part for me is the loss of function. I used to be so active and more independent. I feel like that all is being slowly (and sometimes more quickly) being taken away from me. I have Ehlers-Danlos syndrome. Not too many people have heard of it. I think my pain meds lessen the effectiveness of my antidepressants at times. I'm caught between the proverbial "rock and hard place". Is your pain well controlled? Mine is maybe 30% of the time, but I was told I will never have a pain-free day for the rest of my life. Its a huge adjustment to handle. You sound like such a sweet person and I'm sorry for all that you've had to ensure in your life. Good people seem to get the brunt of life sometimes.