Freewill I am sorry for the pain and suffering that you are enduring. I have never understood why people call a child's rapist a Pedophile first, almost as if to sweep under the fact that they rape children. They do not impose this distinction when Rape happens to Adults.
I have had this discussion with my Therapist, when he talks about my abuse, he has learned to catch himself prior to uttering this to me, because I have told him that the label Pedophile may be appropriate when discussing this kind of abuse with his colleagues, but it is "Very Inappropriate and Hurtful to me"..
Almost like a child's rapist is not as henious a criminal, so adults have come up the this more politically correct term 'Pedophile", to protect the Rapist from a harsher term such as a "Rapist" and demish it's impact on the victim just because the victim was a child, but then I have the same problem with the word Incest..I guess maybe because I just can't see past the act to take in consideration the Rapist's feelings..
A Rapist is a Rapist, whether you know them, are related to them, or they are strangers, and why would the victims age change the wording of what they do and continue to do.
Again, Freewill, you are in my heart...I hope by writing my views and feelings here I have not caused you any additional distress..I just wanted to express that I understand and can relate to the type of emotional and/or physical pain and hurt that the word Pedophile can induce.
Evangelista