I have been diagnosed with personality disorder NOS but fit many of the traits of AvPD and with my experience, I often feel a disconnect with others because I feel like they are so different from me and that I am the lesser person, and inferior. I avoid friendships because in the end I don't want to get hurt because they don't like me or something. I have no idea how to maintain small talk, i ether say something too private or nothing at all. I will say random facts instead of saying hi how are you.I don't go out. I don't have anyone to hang out with other than my husband. I have never been to a real party. Never been to a bar. Never been to a club. I like being alone sometimes but crave some kind of connection but feel like I can't get it.