Still waiting to hear from the Social Workers.....haven't organized the letter to H to get cooperation in cashing the IRS check....but have worked it through in my mind...just need to get it down into an email.

Thank heavens I have demanded that EVERYTHING be in writing since I left 7 years ago.....the first 6 months I hadn't really left, but I had already emotionally.

I thought it odd after 33 years that he never did communicate during those 6 months.....but I wonder if that's an asperger's thing also...out of sight out of mind.....he wasn't out of my mind, but it was such a relief to have him OUT of my life that I didn't bother communicating other than to express the things that were necessary for the marriage to work out....& I never got responses to anything I sent either.......communication was never part of the marriage.....& that IS an asperger's thing.

Sad that they didn't even Dx asperger's until 1994...but that's life......with his attitude, he wouldn't have done anything to work on making life work anyway.....it's sad to say that it's such a relief being away from him after 33 miserable years.....& I can't wait until I do get the divorce finalized. I am wondering if it will be easier getting help for him being separated rather than divorce right now.....but divorce is the only thing that is safe financially with someone that irresponsible if they don't get a conservatorship over him.

Have taken a break to work in my yard & cleaning my house after all the time I spent focusing on the financial issues....I need some ME & MY FARM time....& I got to go trail riding this afternoon to take a mental break from everything also....

Also thinking that maybe it will be easier if he does get a conservatorship over him to work with on the divorce as he doesn't have money for a lawyer & across state lines he can just choose NOT to agree to the things that I state & just NOT sign...so then the only thing my lawyer can to is file in the local paper there that the divorce is going throug.....but it doesn't take care of the assets stuff.......dang, it's so complicated trying to get a divorce from someone who is NOT mentally all there expecially when it comes to communicating & he makes his mind up to something & that's the way it is in his world & doesn't negotiate because he isn't capable of negotiating mentally.

Why did I ever allow myself to go through with the marriage????? I never thought that anyone could be worse in some ways than even my father. It was hell for 33 years.....& the last 7 even though I have not had to live with him has been hell trying to deal with the messes that he's caused.