ive been restrained a lot of times and given the booty juice. one time they held me down and gave me a shot of haldol thru my pants. they just rammed it into my buttcheek and i was out in 5 minutes and i slept for 2 days. this was when i was a teenager. that happened because i was kicking the wall in the padded room and the nurse told me to stop so i kicked it one more time and then she called in security to hold me down. i spetn so much time in that padded room. one day i began to rip all the padding off the wall. my mom had to pay for the damage. then she sent me to this residential treatment program in backwoods TN. it was severely physically and psychologically abusive. they would walk u around in a straight jacket for days. they restrained me for standing up without permission. everything u did u had to ask for permission, even talk. if u did something without permission u were sure to get ur face rubbed int he carpet with 5 staff sitting on ur back. then they put u in a 5 point restraint bed in the middle of the unit. so everyone could see u. omg it was horrible i have flashbacks from it. i was there for 8 months. i couldnt write my mom about it because they read ur letters and would rip them up if u tlaked about the program. idk. sometimes mental health treatment can really mess u up. it can be traumatic. but just know there are healing places out there that are really good and can treat u like a human. i found one. they are out there. dont give up hope