well i am in a residential program now that is very healing. but the sad part of it is it is not covered by insurance and is very very expenisve. they offer scholarships but its still expensive. my trust pays for it. the only reason i got to come here was because my former psychiatrist paid the first 2 months for me (u have to pay full price 2 months before u get a scholarship) he paid $25,000 for me to come here. i am eternally grateful for him and this program. i never thought i would be where im at now. i didnt have much of a future before. i feel like my old psychiatrist felt guilty because he was my doctor when my mom sent me away. i wrote him letters every day until they told me i couldnt write him anymore. when i got back i told him everything. he was horrified. then right after i got out of there i met my former therapist which u all know about. again my pdoc was stunned. the day i told him ill never forget. he came back the next day and said he didnt sleep that night. he isnt my pdoc anymore because he paid that money for me to come here. but we still text every now and then.