You and I have the same diagnosis. Depression, anxiety and PTSD are a real beast.

You have been numbing the pain for a long time. Not touching it and ot dealing with it. It was bound to come back and punch you in the guts (not your fault). What you have been through is enough to knock anyone out, and here you are still standing.

Therapy might help you, and of course we are here to listen. I am glad you found somone who supports you. I am not sure I would still be around without my husbands support. The PTSD made me have trust issues and I had to push through those in order to see that even though he was not a perfect human being (no one is) he was there for me always and more importnantly at that moment.

Hope this helps