Meds have came a long way over the years and can very well be life saving. Not all meds make you numb to the world or make you a drooling fool like you see on TV. I'm sure your doctor may like to try you on some sort of antidepressant. Just pay close attention when and if you start a new medication. You may have to try several before you find the right one for you. But when you find the right one, the difference therapy along with medication can make in your life will surprise you.