My session with T was last night. Sigh. Now I am down. It isn't always this way after sessions. But sometimes, yes. We are making a lot of progress and somehow last night felt like a turning point to me, that now our sessions will be extremely goal oriented. No more sitting there chewing the fat, talking about dreams, doing EMDR, basking in his presence. Blah. Like now it will be a lot of nuts and bolts to get from point A to point B. It's not that I don't need to do those things, just that I feel a bit in mourning for our past therapy. Does that make sense? Like maybe yesterday was the beginning of the end. And now we are on a downhill slope to termination. Does reaching my goal mean terminating sessions with T? Somehow they are getting tangled up in my mind.