I'm kind of losing it because I think I'm manic again. Last week I wanted to drop my classes because I thought I was failing and I messaged two of my profs. My math prof knows I have schizoaffective and she said I have an A in my class so I have no worries. My psych prof didn't understand why I was so concerned about my research paper because I ended up with a 95 on it. I have thoughts of offing myself really badly and I feel overwhelmed. At least tonight is my last cna shift for the week so that's something to look forward to.