I am so anxious. Work hasn't had me work in a while so I need to call but just the though makes my heart beat so fast and I almost want to cry. I'm also constantly worrying about being fired. And anxious about actually working once I do again. And now I can't even talk to guys outside of my family without assuming that they're only after sex or going to rape me and it's not logical but that's what I think so I get pissed when I guy even talks to me bit especially the fukking idiots (I can't even think of a mean enough name to express how angry this makes me) who call me a sl*t!? I'm not a sl*t I was fukking raped. Oh I am so angry about that but in general almost constantly anxious and I don't even know how to handle it. I stopped eating which is a really good distraction but doesn't actually solve anything. Also I know it's not fair at all but if you're male please don't reply to this I can't right now.