Please go to your treatment provider. Procrastination is an enemy of any bodies wellness. You won't know how your family will react until you let them know. Our imaginations will run riot on us until we take action. You are talking worse case scenario when you don't have any basis for it. I've heard that 98% of what we fear never happens. I have made myself sick with worry over many things in life and they never happened. I do understand.

To look after your boy you need to take care of yourself. Please take care of yourself.