Thank you, guys, for all of your input! I really loved reading about each of your experiences and can only say that a lot resonate with myself. Hesitation, holding back, being submissive and never getting around to living your own life seem almost the essence of all that has been described.

Thanks again! I am currently writing my document that I am going to print out for the nurse tomorrow.. in case I should show up and forget everything and have my mind randomly wiped clean (or just blank). Hopefully I will get this diagnosis, not because I would love to be an avoidant, but because that is what I am, and I want THAT word which describes me so well, so that I can tell it to others and so that they can finally understand - so that I can finally understand myself - and finally find peace in that regard.