also as a side note to feeling left out about getting married both our families and friends are constantly asking when he and i are getting married...it gets harder and harder for me to answer and it makes me sad when they ask, and we always just look at each other and brush it off and nothing more is said, it can be frustrating at times, cuz in some ways i feel like im wasting my time, but i do love him and want to be with him, im not going to leave just because i can't have a wedding im not that egotistical