Yeah, I know you're right, but even THAT seems a "Why bother?"

I've had years and years of meds and docs and all that. Nothing helped, and I usually ended up feeling MORE hopeless because it didn't help, or even worse, invalidated........... as when the guy with the Doctorate in Psychiatry told me to my face "I don't have a CLUE what's wrong with you... do you have the money for the next visit?"

Sorry about the grouching, just trying to explain how even help seems impossible, and seems I'd rather drift away by myself than have that happen again. When that happens, it's like they're laughing at me for being sick.