Your rant is at least interesting. You must not live in the same county because the cops around here would not have been so compassionate. I think all the shootings don't help. That's good there are a few practical cops left.

I understand why you choose to live at home and I feel for your situation. I just wonder how much being held back and under those rules affects your recovery. I wonder if you would have such bouts of sleeping. At some point the need to fly gets overwhelming. I lived at home until ~22 and when I moved I began to thrive. Four years later I moved out west solo. A friend of mine was in a hospital for a Sui attempt. He lost his place and his job. He was really lucky though. One of the other patients decided to share a place and it has really worked out. I don't know if the hospital supported that arrangement considering there was also substance abuse. My point is I wish there was a community situation for you. Not residential care or halfway house but more like a dorm style but with other recovering people and some minor support. I know they exist but they are rare. Maybe even a shared house. Another friend had a room in a huge old house. Everyone was a musician or made films and made no money. It was pretty loud and crazy but the idea is good. It is probably still there unless it's been condemned. If you are near a college that might be something (not loud and crazy but maybe creative). Anyway, those are just ideas. Maybe you have thought of this or maybe you are ready or interested. Maybe I am overstepping.

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