any time we are around each other i do make the effect by showing him attention and affection, and he'll pull away saying im being weird or clingy, whihc in turn upsets me more. i would like to be married but at the same time in not in a rush to just get married right this second.
but i honestly think him seeing all his friends getting married and having kids is putting pressure and pushing him extremely slowly in the right direction, he'll openly talk about it when his friends are around, but then silence when it is just he an i, or i get the odd out of nowhere " when we/i have a wedding it'll be like this..."
the biggest compliant i have is just how he he seems to be out of the honeymoon stage of our relationship, but im not. its very irritating at time when im told im being weird or annoying when i do things he used to be all about me doing for him

and just to add a little to the story pretty recently we did break up for about a month, he kept talking to me and wanting to see me, but it was causing my depression to be worse, so i flat out one day told him look if were not getting back together i can't be your friend and i can't talk to you anymore at all.....so he literally turns around minutes later and says he wants me back but to take things slow...within minutes of that he was telling me how much he loved me and missed me and only wants to be with me??? it was very strange so im not sure how to really take what he says to heart, like days he says he doesn't want to get married but then turn around and openly talks about it to his friends....hes a huge flip flopper and its very annoying at times and its a big reason i feel neglected